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i dont deserve anything nice from anyone. Not my friends, not you!
HEARD IT!
i dont want anyone to treat me nicely, i want to know pain and so that i'll treasure the slightest gesture.
i dont want to cry again when i lose it all. when you decides to walk away.
i want to turn time back. just 3 weeks! thats all i ask for.
thats what i think i want.
i once had it all, i did not know how to treasure it. i think i only know whats best when i lose it all.
now i lost it, i know how great i had been treated.
i didnt know. i didnt know i didnt know i didnt know!
he said something that i thought was quite ture today.
'normally, when its only a test you study like mad, and now n lvls you're worrying about such things?'
stop studing after THE IDIOT poured water all over the notes that i have been doing for the past few weeks. yes EVERYTHING IS GONE. i guess the person did not even know, not even a sorry was said. hais FORGET IT!
I SHALL NOT MENTION WHOM!!!!!

not of the best moods today!
KILLKILLKILL
if you would have even noticed, you chose to ignore. at least thats what i think.